oh yeah. my racket broke when i was stroking.
before my match,shocked me.
it was after all the first time this happens to my racket.
just when i just chnged back to my matching grip.
my chio racket=(

sorry below are my rantings, just ignore if u aint interested.




i tried my very best.i did what i could.
i swear i did.
i have no regrets of the game, cause i know i pushed myself for what i could.
i am not expecting some kinda praise.
but how about some recognition that i've put in effort?
No. nt even close.
the moment i stepped out of the court,
i was slapped right on my face with a statement from my coach:
" i have to admit steph (my partner) , you played a great game.better then HER."
what the hell is with the sarcasm?!
how about some encouragment.
how about some "great job. good try."
i've never panted so hard in a game.
was never so determined to win that i actually felt the pain for each and every point lost.
when we lost, the disappointment was there.
all i needed was some encouragment.
but no, i just got a coach who insisted on accusations upon me.
he insisted i was fed up during my game
i swear i wasnt.
i controlled my temper.
i was just merely panting super hard.
was just merely giving a stern face cause all i had in my mind was to fight hard!
HOW IS THAT FED-UP!?
why is that wrong?

during the break of the game.
my coach intructed another way of playing the game.
i told him i wasnt confident of doing it.
he got mad and walked off.
game started, i tried his way of playing.
i ended up making more mistakes then ever.
it just dont work for me.
and so i made my own judgement and just simply played the best that i could to hold on the game as much as possible.
was it wrong again?
yes apprently to coach.
so much for fight hard.
so much for fighting on uh!

but 1 thing for sure i know,
we eventually did put into play what mr foo instructed and wanted us to do.
and that he was happy about it i suppose?
mr foo and coach just have such huge difference in the way they want us to play our match.
sometimes it really just confuses me.
mathea said to make our own judgement and do whichever makes things work for us.
mr foo's method worked for me.
but it obviously didnt work for coach.
having me getting blamed for.
做多错多
how true uh.
i take more shots.
and so i take the blames.
hias..


seriously, a million thanks to mr foo.
he wont see this but he's seriously a very awesome teacher.
a very encouraging one. a very passionate one.
never fails to make us laugh and never fail to spur us on.
he can be very naggy at times i know it all means well.
he makes me not want to disappoint him.
one word: BEST!(:

it turns out to be a very aweful day

i hate this.

& all the disappointments just keeps sinking in.