i once said to others:
people makes mistakes because,
at that moment when the mistake is being made,
to that person,
it does not seem like a wrong thing to do,
else,the mistake wont be done.
no one will be so silly to do something,
when they know its wrong,
or when they have another alternative route.


but that,
doesn't apply to me.
i make mistakes when i know I'm at fault.
i continue to do so.
because of my stubbornness.
because that's me.
the worst of me.
my horrendous temper.

i tried to change it.
but i never succeeded.
& i know,
i hurt many people cause of this.
even the closest people around me.
even the people i love the most.
though some can tolerate and forgive;
but i know its not an obligation of them
& slowly, one by one..
i'll lose them.
but who can tell me how to change.
how?
sigh..